Faith?

When was the last time you prayed? When I mean prayed, I mean really truely prayed. I know that we all may talk to God through out our day and have little conversations asking for help, but when was the last time you actually got down on your knees and truely prayed? I have never really been a religous person nor have I ever truely got down and prayed but last night, I did. Some of you know that I have been following a blog about Sweet Baby Kayleigh was was born at 28 weeks weighing 1 lbs. Because she was growing 6 weeks behind she was basically at the stage of a 21 weeker. Acoording to her drs she was never expected to make it through the pregnancy due to lack of amniotic fkuid let alone survive her first night in this world. Kayleigh has proven time and time again that prayer can solve anything and this little girls will and determination has helped her to come back from death more than once. She became the smallest person to have open heart surgery at only 3 lbs. She has had eye surgery, underwent a tracheostomy, countless infections that almost claimed her life as well as her most recent surgery to peform a Nissen surgery (take the stomach up to prevent asperations), a new central line, hernia repair and a g-tube proceedure. After this most recent surgery, Kayleigh was on the up and up and was recovering well until she was in so much pain they had to heavily sedate her. After a day or so they weened her off and she was fine. Only problem is, shes not waking up. They performed a test and said that she is brain dead. There are a lot of factors that could have caused this reading, barbituates which she had recieved that morning can cause a flat line. While I have neve rmet the Freemans personally, they have allowed so many to be involved Kayleighs story and life, as short as it may be and when you have communicated with someone for almost a year, you feel that they are a part of your life. The Freemans have strugled so much with the housing market crashing (they are realators), having one of their vehicles being reposessed because they took a hard hit to their income, their house in forclosure and having to pay almost a grand a month in insurance for Kayleigh. While many businesses and great people have helped them by donating money and toys at Christmas time for their other two children, they have been through a lot and for Kayleigh to pass, it just seems to not be fair. Kayleigh has seemed to brought so many people together and renewed so many people's faith, including my own in the Lord Last night while I was reading Adams post, I couldn't help but cry and feel pain. This little girl has been through so much in her short life that it just doesn't seem fair to have her come so far only to take her now. I was angry and wanted to know what type of God would do this to this family, to this poor little girl who has done nothin wrong. While I felt my faith slipping away, I remembered all that Lord has done for her and for all of us. All that he has blessed my family with and his purpose for Kayleigh on this Earth. Last night before i went to bed, I got down on my knees and prayed to God that he once again touch Kayleigh and help her overcome this one last obstical and to let her have more time with her family and the opportunity to grow old and experience all that life has to offer. After I prayed, I got up, went in and kissed Ashelynn and then grabbed my sweet baby boy. I layed in bed with him and thank God that I had them in my life and fell asleep cuddling with him. I didn't sleep very well last night because I had so much going through my mind. I realized though with everything that has gone through my head that I seem to take a lot for granted. I have these two perfect little babies, that who although the begining of their lives wasn't easy, none the less they are here with me. There are those who will never get to see their children grow up, never get to see them smile again or feel their arms wrapped around them giving them hugs as well as kisses. I thank God that He blessed me with my beautiful children. Please pray for baby Kayleigh even though you may not know her or her story very well, no parent should be without their children, especially when they have struggled to keep them in this world and fought all the odds. www.kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com