So my drs appt went really good. She said everything looked good. I had minimal scarring on my cervix, there was no scarring over the opening of my cervix, my ovaries felt fine so that means my cyst is gone, she said that everything was moist down there like it was supposed to be (not sure what that ment) and that I was ovulating. She did the pap and of course I bled a whole bunch because she irritated the scar tissue that was down there. She also did an HPV test because she wanted to make sure before I got that gaurdisil (sp) shot that I didn't have it and if I did what type so that she could make sure it protected me against that strand. My last pap that I had was negative for HPV so Im not sure why she would test me again especially since my blood work came back clean. It should take a week for them to get back to me if my pap was positive for reaccuring cells and if not, just a little letter in the mail telling me Im good to go!! That means I would only need one more test in 6 months and then I get to go once a year and after 2 years of negative results I get to go every three years. Once I hit that point Im considered in remission!!! I can't freakin wait to hit that mark.
Im trying to get Wes to go in and get a SA but hes unwilling. He is in denial now that Im healthy and the dr said I should be good. She said from all my past u/s and x-rays its all perfect. I just think we haven't hit it at the right time. We only have 6 months to go until we are considered to have fertility problems. Im not worried, I'm not so stressed out about it just for the fact that I figure its out of my control. No matter how hard I wish and try, that its not gonna make it happen any faster.
Tomorrow is the ball and Im excited!! Get to get all pretty, wear a pretty dress and go out with my hubby! After words we are all going to Plat Jaxx. Im going from Glam to Hoochie that night so I'll be sure to take lots of pictures! Im just excited for an adult night out. I mean, we are going to dinner tonight but we are taking ashe with us so its not really alone time.
Today has gone by a little slow. I've cleaned a lot at work so yeah, now there is nothing to do.....
There was more that I wanted to say but I can't remember.
Oh yeah. Last night I was talkin to Ashe and she looked at me and said "Can I call my other daddy?" (meaning matt) and I told her no cause it was late there and he was prolly in bed. Then, she said, and this part killed me, "How come he doesn't call me? My daddy calls me when hes at work cause he loves me. How come my other daddy doesn't call?" This coming from a 3 almost 4 year old!!! I almost wanted to cry and I didn't know how to answer her. I just told her that he has been busy. He hasn't called her since Christmas. I didn't even think that she would remember or think about it because she has never said anything about him. Im at a loss for words.
Feedom comes at a price and some pay more than others. I proudly support my husband in his decisions to help protect our way of life even though it means long lonely nights of worry and heartbreak.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
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I pray pray pray that you don't have to deal with infertility. Well, for one, you seem to be dealing with enough in that department, and believe me it is not fun. It is something I would never wish on anyone. I don't care who they are.
I can't wait to see pics from the ball. This will be able to give me an idea of what kind of dress to wear. I've got one in mind already but I don't know if it is right for it.
shoot i say wear what you want. As long as its not to short and doesnt show WAY to much skin you will be alright. There were some people dressed like they were going to prom in the OVERLY puffy dresses.
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