Thursday, June 19, 2008
Finding out the hard way
So I now understand more about why they told me if I got pregnant it would be hard. I had to stop takin my asthma meds when I did because they increades my bp. I also couldnt take my rescue inhaler because it increased my heartrate. Well they told me that coming off them would cause some issues and boy they were right! I have had a little shortness of breath ever since I came off of them, i figured no biggie I can handle it. Well today I couldnt. I was in the PX and I started having trouble breathing. It turned into a full blown attack and on top of that because we were alone I started to panic. Well I stopped and calmed down and checked out and headed for the hospital. I started to freak out again when I was walking in. I almost started crying when I was talking to the guy. He said my sat levels were good but my heart rate was high. He told me just to sit and calm down that I was going to be fine. So I had to wait 2 flippin hours to see the dr. Im freakin pregnant HELLO!!! I cant breath my baby cant breath. So the er doc gave me something, well some things that I could take. One of them Im not sure of so I gotta call OB tomorrow just to make sure its ok to take. I have to take 2 puffs 4 times a day and its a high dose steriod even though he said it wasnt. Umm I think the warning on it says it all. Im feeling a lot better now, still a little tight but definately better. He told me that I can't tough it out that I HAVE to take the medicine.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Just something random
I've realized that in the last 3 years, I have spent a lot of time by myself. Its made me realize a lot about myself. I've come to realize that I do well on my own. I can think for myself more and I like not having to rely on someone to do things for me. Granted, there are some things that I can't do myself and it is nice to have someone else around, but I'm pretty good at living by myself, I think I've had enough practice.
Having L home from Iraq has definately been a BIG adjustment. I'm used to doing things in my own time. If the house is messy, its ok cause its just ashe and I and 9 times out of 10 its just toys and well, anyone who has toddlers or has watched toddlers knows that its pointless to clean everyday. I dont go threw that many dishes so I dont worry whether the dishes get done every day. I can just chill, relax and spend time with A and worry about all the other stuff when she goes to bed. Having L home has drastically changed that. With him it has to be clean EVERYDAY and toys on the floor is unacceptable. Dishes have to be done everyday and Heaven forbid they sit in the dishwasher longer then the next morning. I have a TON of laundry to do and it seems like I could clean the house from top to bottom and within 5 min of him being home, its trashed again and its not the child that did it. I can see the need to make the house look decent, just for peace of mind, but to have it SPOTLESS all day every day, man I tell you what, I might as well quit at this whole house wife thing.
Now that Im pregnant this is getting harder to do because although I am in my second trimester, I am still low on energy and I still have plenty of days where I dont feel good and I am sluggish. While he is now getting a better understanding of day to day life with a child and realizing that life can not be perfect and neither can your house, he still has his moments. I told him that if he thinks that its bad now that I am slow to do things, he needs to wait and see what its like when I have this baby because NOTHING is going to get done for awhile. I am having a repeat c-section which is going to be a lot more painful and take a lot longer to recover from then the first one, but I am going to have to juggle a 4 year old and (a 95% chance that this baby will be) a premie, that I am going to have no energy what so ever. Its bad enough having a newborn with the no sleep in the begining but with a premie the sleep is even less.
Im drifting off, which I tend to do lately, but having him gone to BNOC, I miss him a ton, but the peace and quiet and relaxation is nice, very nice. I think that I need to have more time to myself when L gets home before the baby comes. Whether it be shopping by myself, or going for a drive by myself or even locking myself in my room and just relaxing, Im going to do it. I NEED to do it. I need to do it for my sanity and to keep from losing my mind with constantly cleaning the house.
Having L home from Iraq has definately been a BIG adjustment. I'm used to doing things in my own time. If the house is messy, its ok cause its just ashe and I and 9 times out of 10 its just toys and well, anyone who has toddlers or has watched toddlers knows that its pointless to clean everyday. I dont go threw that many dishes so I dont worry whether the dishes get done every day. I can just chill, relax and spend time with A and worry about all the other stuff when she goes to bed. Having L home has drastically changed that. With him it has to be clean EVERYDAY and toys on the floor is unacceptable. Dishes have to be done everyday and Heaven forbid they sit in the dishwasher longer then the next morning. I have a TON of laundry to do and it seems like I could clean the house from top to bottom and within 5 min of him being home, its trashed again and its not the child that did it. I can see the need to make the house look decent, just for peace of mind, but to have it SPOTLESS all day every day, man I tell you what, I might as well quit at this whole house wife thing.
Now that Im pregnant this is getting harder to do because although I am in my second trimester, I am still low on energy and I still have plenty of days where I dont feel good and I am sluggish. While he is now getting a better understanding of day to day life with a child and realizing that life can not be perfect and neither can your house, he still has his moments. I told him that if he thinks that its bad now that I am slow to do things, he needs to wait and see what its like when I have this baby because NOTHING is going to get done for awhile. I am having a repeat c-section which is going to be a lot more painful and take a lot longer to recover from then the first one, but I am going to have to juggle a 4 year old and (a 95% chance that this baby will be) a premie, that I am going to have no energy what so ever. Its bad enough having a newborn with the no sleep in the begining but with a premie the sleep is even less.
Im drifting off, which I tend to do lately, but having him gone to BNOC, I miss him a ton, but the peace and quiet and relaxation is nice, very nice. I think that I need to have more time to myself when L gets home before the baby comes. Whether it be shopping by myself, or going for a drive by myself or even locking myself in my room and just relaxing, Im going to do it. I NEED to do it. I need to do it for my sanity and to keep from losing my mind with constantly cleaning the house.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Ugh the curse of pregnancy!
I have a cold.. well its more like allergies meet my daughters cold. I forgot how crappy it was to be sick or have an allergy flare-up when you are pregnant because you cant take anything! Im still 8 weeks away from being able to take sudafed. I can't even use my inhaler which makes breathing sooooooooo much fun let me tell you. I have my next appt on the 24th and I am going to BEG him to give me something. The nurse practioner I saw for my initial appt on the 5th told me that I can't take the albuterol but I can take cingular or that one inhaler that lasts for up to 12 hours for relief. I can't remember the name. I have a non-albuterol inhaler but it doesn't help me at all. Its like I took nothing. Grrr... My body feels like I got hit by a truck. Im so stuffed up I can feel all my teeth.
Other then feeling crappy, the only pregnancy complaint I have is I'm still experiencing some morning sickness, or all day sickness. I still find myself running to the bathroom or looking at the toliet paper after I wipe to make sure that im not bleeding. So far so good and nothing showed on the ultrasound. I'm considered high risk. I have to go every couple of weeks a see the dr. I also have to have my cervix measured to make sure it doesn't shorten. When that happens, its stuck to the bed my butt gets. Fun right? Baby looked good at my first ultrasound. It was hard for the tech to get some good measurements and still pics for the radiologist and for me because the kid was literally bouncing off the side of my uterus. I ended up being a week ahead of what they thought. Good for me YAY!! I'm now due the 22nd instead of the 28. Im not complaining. I'm now in my second trimester which I guess makes me feel better because the chance of miscarriage goes down a ton.
Thats all I have for now I guess.
Other then feeling crappy, the only pregnancy complaint I have is I'm still experiencing some morning sickness, or all day sickness. I still find myself running to the bathroom or looking at the toliet paper after I wipe to make sure that im not bleeding. So far so good and nothing showed on the ultrasound. I'm considered high risk. I have to go every couple of weeks a see the dr. I also have to have my cervix measured to make sure it doesn't shorten. When that happens, its stuck to the bed my butt gets. Fun right? Baby looked good at my first ultrasound. It was hard for the tech to get some good measurements and still pics for the radiologist and for me because the kid was literally bouncing off the side of my uterus. I ended up being a week ahead of what they thought. Good for me YAY!! I'm now due the 22nd instead of the 28. Im not complaining. I'm now in my second trimester which I guess makes me feel better because the chance of miscarriage goes down a ton.
Thats all I have for now I guess.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Not liking this place
So, so far, this place sucks. I went to the hospital yesterday to switch regions in tricare and go to womens health to get my paperword for housing to show proof of pregnancy and the chick didnt know what she was talking about. Got me really iritated, (not that thats hard to do lately). She kept telling me that the person that could give me the paperwork wasn't there and to come back tomorrow. I was like ok, then I asked her if I needed to have blood work done before she gives me that paperwork to verify. She told me that as long as I had a positive home test that that was fine. Ummm.... yea so anyone can walk in say, "hey I had a positive home test, I need the paperwork to get a bigger house" and then after they move and before the first appt claim miscarriage... She just simply tells me no and after my ob reg I will have all my blood tests done. So I went back there this morning and she says "Oh, shes in the ob reg class and wont be done until 11. Well isnt that FUCKING NICE!!! Why didnt your dumb ass tell me that yesterday? I could have saved myself the severe headache i have right now by sleeping alittle bit longer. So we leave, (wes has to be at his unit to meet and greet and take over the section at 1245) and go get something to eat. I try and call the lady at 5 after and she wasnt there. So we head over there thinking that by the time we get there she would be there. We get there and shes not there.... great, she probabl went to lunch. The same dumb ass chick asks if we want to wait. I say yeah I'll wait for a bit. About 10 min later, she comes back in the waiting room and tells me that she needs my id because she was talking to one of the other nurses and I do need a blood test. Yeah lady thanks for callin me a moron yesterday and makig me wait for no damn reason. So I go and get my blood drawn and leave. Im about to call the lady I need to speak to to see when I can pick up the paperwork. My OB reg class is tuesday. Im hoping that I can skip it and get seen sooner since I am rh- and I am sensatised and I have had 2 leeps and have already had a preemie baby. I am considered high risks so Im not taking any chances. If I cant get an appt sooner Im hoping that I can get all the rest of my blood work done. For cripes sakes, Im 6 weeks and 4 days, I will be 7 weeks 4 days at my ob reg and with leeps, you are supposed to be seen by the time you are 8 weeks to determine whether or not you need a cerclauge. I was told its supposed to be done by 10 weeks. At this rate, I'll be 10 weeks at my first appt.
I also need to talk to her about my 24/7 hangover that I seem to have. I read in my book that if you didn't have it with your first pregnancy, you arent predisposed to having it in any other pregnancy. If you have it in a subsequent pregnancy, it can signal something is wrong or you are pregnant with multiples... It also can just be luck of the draw. I might have felt like shit with ashe just didnt kknow it because I was preoccupied with all the other problems. Im just hoping that everthing goes well and no problems come up. The smell of our laundry detergent I used to LOVE!! now, I cant stand it and the smell is overwhelming. My body soap, shampoo and conditioner? Half the time I get in the shower I end up jsut rinsing off and not using it because I end up with a really bad case of dry heving and end up doubled up. I guess I might feel better if i were able to throw up but I guess thats what I get being able to handle stuff and never really throwing up.
I also need to talk to her about my 24/7 hangover that I seem to have. I read in my book that if you didn't have it with your first pregnancy, you arent predisposed to having it in any other pregnancy. If you have it in a subsequent pregnancy, it can signal something is wrong or you are pregnant with multiples... It also can just be luck of the draw. I might have felt like shit with ashe just didnt kknow it because I was preoccupied with all the other problems. Im just hoping that everthing goes well and no problems come up. The smell of our laundry detergent I used to LOVE!! now, I cant stand it and the smell is overwhelming. My body soap, shampoo and conditioner? Half the time I get in the shower I end up jsut rinsing off and not using it because I end up with a really bad case of dry heving and end up doubled up. I guess I might feel better if i were able to throw up but I guess thats what I get being able to handle stuff and never really throwing up.
Friday, May 2, 2008
finally here
so we are finally in La. We got here yesterday late afternoon. Wes right now is at the housing office finding out about housing. I prolly should be getting ready to go because we have to go to the hospital and inroll in tricare. I need to get my blod work done and make an appt and ashe needs to go see the dr about those bumps on her face.
This pregnancy, although I am only 6 weeks has sucked butt. I am ALWAYS sick. Its like I dont know what feeling good is like. I constantly wanna throw up. I am extremely paranoid right now because of what happened when I was preggo with ashelynn. I bled really bad from about 5 weeks to 20 weeks. I try and reassure myself in the sense that I am a week past the point where i started having problems with ashe but everytime I feel a little leak I have to run for the bathroom to check to make sure that Im not bleeding. I have a constant headache that is not so much fun. Tylenol(sp) only works for about an hour or so and since right now I can only take 2 a day it makes the day sooooooooooo much fun. I know that I shouldnt complain because its taken 2 years of unprotected sex, 4 months of tracking my cervical fluid and 2 months of temp charting to get here, I would just like to experience the great uneventful pregnancy that all my friends seem to have had. I totally didnt think that I was pregnant. I had it in my mind that my body was being retarded and I was gonna start any time. I started having these weird twangs of pain that would only last a sec on each side and in my crotch. I also had increased discharge. I looked up online and everything pointed to pregnancy and I was like, nope, no way. Wes made me take a rest. he woke me up at like 730 and argued with me for an hour to go take it. I was totally shocked cause it was like BAM as soon as the urin hit that part of the test. I had to go back and check the box and instructions to make sure what I was reading as right.
Well thats about it for now gotta get dressed, he should be here soon
This pregnancy, although I am only 6 weeks has sucked butt. I am ALWAYS sick. Its like I dont know what feeling good is like. I constantly wanna throw up. I am extremely paranoid right now because of what happened when I was preggo with ashelynn. I bled really bad from about 5 weeks to 20 weeks. I try and reassure myself in the sense that I am a week past the point where i started having problems with ashe but everytime I feel a little leak I have to run for the bathroom to check to make sure that Im not bleeding. I have a constant headache that is not so much fun. Tylenol(sp) only works for about an hour or so and since right now I can only take 2 a day it makes the day sooooooooooo much fun. I know that I shouldnt complain because its taken 2 years of unprotected sex, 4 months of tracking my cervical fluid and 2 months of temp charting to get here, I would just like to experience the great uneventful pregnancy that all my friends seem to have had. I totally didnt think that I was pregnant. I had it in my mind that my body was being retarded and I was gonna start any time. I started having these weird twangs of pain that would only last a sec on each side and in my crotch. I also had increased discharge. I looked up online and everything pointed to pregnancy and I was like, nope, no way. Wes made me take a rest. he woke me up at like 730 and argued with me for an hour to go take it. I was totally shocked cause it was like BAM as soon as the urin hit that part of the test. I had to go back and check the box and instructions to make sure what I was reading as right.
Well thats about it for now gotta get dressed, he should be here soon
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
so
our house is packed up and we are staying in lodging on elmendorf. We leave on the 16th to start our long journey to Va and then to La. Wish me luck. I cant wait to get to La and get our stuff back. I miss my bed! We are sleeping on a double bed and let me tell you, I am about fed up with having the left side of my body slept on lol. I also cant wait to get down there so Amanda can come visit and I can see how big Rye guy has gotten and see baby Ayden!!!! I'm gonna try and get on again before we leave. Im at my moms house right now. I wanted to come update my fertility chart. My temps are looking a lot different then last month. The link is below if you want to check them out!
I know that I should be greatful that I have one kid already and trust me I am. I just hate that it was so easy the first time around and now I am dealing with trying to get pregnant after cervical cancer. I know she said that I look good but i still cant help but think otherwise. We will see though!
I know that I should be greatful that I have one kid already and trust me I am. I just hate that it was so easy the first time around and now I am dealing with trying to get pregnant after cervical cancer. I know she said that I look good but i still cant help but think otherwise. We will see though!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
strange things are happeneing
So... I get my period every 25-27 days... Well... day 28 is over in about an hour and I still have no period. I don't even feel like im going to get it...... I had a HUGE temp drop today though so it makes me think its coming soon.... My temp yesterday was 99 and this morning it was 98.4. If its high tomorrow, well then I don't know what to think at this point. I had sex the days that I thought I was ovulating and the day that my tracker says that I did and the days before and after. Then again my tracker also says I am supposed to get my period on the 31? But then it says my average cycle is 26 days with 25 being the shortest and 27 longest??? I normally do get it every 25-27 days right on the money and like I said before, day 28 is over with in an hour. I'll play the chart game and see what comes up. Its only 3 days so its only about 5 days that I have to drive myself nuts.
The wedding was awesome! Had some snags, but then again nothing ever goes as planned and I can not wait!! to see the pics that were taken! We took some really good ones and then we got to take some really goofy ones. The kids were soooooooooo super cute! Ashe, Laiken and Mckinlee did awesome! Ashelynn looked so pretty in her dress with her hair all curled! I wanted to cry when I saw how grown up she looked! I'll be sure to post the link that I'll have my pics on or I may post some of them here.
We are moving on schedule after all. We are going to do an in route tdy move. Basically we are screwing the army and the system lol but it is TOTALLY legal. They pulled all the strings and loops to make sure we were still leaving on time on Thursday and it was all finalized Friday so. They come Monday for the pre-inventory and then friday to pack up. Im ready for all og this to be over with thats for damn sure.
Monday I am going to go cut and color my hair. Wes wants me to go back blonde but I with that I am just going to go with a light brown and blonde highlights. Sounds better to me because I didnt like the blonde all in my hair. The most I'll compromise with him is the lightbrown/dark blonde. I'm also butting about 5 inches off my hair to make it collar bone length. Thats alot of hair and he is not dealing with it so well but I am tired of my hair and the fact that it wont hold a curl anymore with out mass amounts of hairspray!
Heres the link to my chart if you wanna see.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/646e1
The wedding was awesome! Had some snags, but then again nothing ever goes as planned and I can not wait!! to see the pics that were taken! We took some really good ones and then we got to take some really goofy ones. The kids were soooooooooo super cute! Ashe, Laiken and Mckinlee did awesome! Ashelynn looked so pretty in her dress with her hair all curled! I wanted to cry when I saw how grown up she looked! I'll be sure to post the link that I'll have my pics on or I may post some of them here.
We are moving on schedule after all. We are going to do an in route tdy move. Basically we are screwing the army and the system lol but it is TOTALLY legal. They pulled all the strings and loops to make sure we were still leaving on time on Thursday and it was all finalized Friday so. They come Monday for the pre-inventory and then friday to pack up. Im ready for all og this to be over with thats for damn sure.
Monday I am going to go cut and color my hair. Wes wants me to go back blonde but I with that I am just going to go with a light brown and blonde highlights. Sounds better to me because I didnt like the blonde all in my hair. The most I'll compromise with him is the lightbrown/dark blonde. I'm also butting about 5 inches off my hair to make it collar bone length. Thats alot of hair and he is not dealing with it so well but I am tired of my hair and the fact that it wont hold a curl anymore with out mass amounts of hairspray!
Heres the link to my chart if you wanna see.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/646e1
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