Feedom comes at a price and some pay more than others. I proudly support my husband in his decisions to help protect our way of life even though it means long lonely nights of worry and heartbreak.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

School is killing me...

Ugh school is kickin my hinney! Not to mention when you add all three of us have the flu, no thanks to some kid in A's class. She got over it fast, me, not so much. Im now on day 6 and no sign of getting better. K is starting to come into the worst of it. He's had a fever all day and been sleepy.
He has learned to crawl up on the furniture. Twice today he climbed on the couch to get into my lap to take a nap. Just crawled his little pampered butt up here and snuggled! I LOVE when he snuggles and him being at the age where he only does it when he's sick so I need to soak it up while I can.
I can not wait for the 20th or 21st to get here so I know whether or not my hubby is graduating on the 25th. I have full confidence that he is since he got moved to a different platoon away from the D-Bag RI. I am so over him being gone. I miss him like crazy!!!! Being sick makes me miss him more lol.
School is killing me. I should have known better than to take another class with this stupid history class. The first History class was hard enough to stay focused on because there was a crap ton of reading (BORING STUFF TOO) so why I chose to take another class with the 2nd half of my history credit, I will never know. I do know however that I am NOT taking any other classes with my math class. Im taking that next term and I'm taking it on campus. I have to otherwise Im not gonna pass it. I suck at math. It will prolly be the last class I take until we get moved if L gets into the battalion at Benning. I wont have time to take another class before then.
I just need to get all my major courses out of the way then I can focus on my electives which should be pretty easy to do. We'll see though.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Derrrr

So I've realized that after reading my past posts, that I have posted the same information about 3 time lol. I don't know where my head has been lately.
So anyone remotely involved in the military knows that there is bound to be drama! Well, the unit here has been pretty drama free, or at least this company, since we have been here. Well, all that changed with the start of the FRG discussion in my cafe mom group. So I had asked what unit everyone was associated with and it turned into a lot of girls no knowing who the FRG leader for HHC was (my hubby's company). Well guess what, I'm friends with the Co-Leader. We don't have an active FRG (yet we have the most fundraisers and money out of the whole unit cause we have a kick ass 1 sgt!!) so I tell them that we have had issues getting the email list and to email me their information. Well evidently someone doesn't know how to read. So somebody body drama llama privates wife goes and complains to the 1sgt that no one knows the and she is mad. Well all the guys get in trouble for something that wasn't their fault. Not to mention, some stuck up biotch co-leader in B co, who for this purpose we will call SB and who ironically would have it was my co-leader in Alaska, starts bad mouthing our company at the Coffee for the leaders and co-leaders!! The company commander had sent his fiance to this meeting cause after all, she will be the FRG leader once they get married and needs to learn the ropes. She speaks up to defend the company and explain the situation and why we are having issues and wouldn't you know big mouth SB turns around and says all stuck up, "Excuse me, we haven't met (knowing full well who she is) whats your last name? Oh that's right, you aren't a spouse and have no business at this meeting"!!!!! Can you believe that? She wouldn't have that position as co-leader if it weren't for her husband!! Also, we are in the same unit, we are supposed to be a family, why the hell are you bad mouthing another company? Especially a company who clearly is not lacking in the funds department. I'm sorry, whats the last thing you have done for your soldiers other then a BATTALION ball? Oh that's right, NOTHING!! we have had all sorts of fun days, we had our own ball before the Battalion ball as well as have SEVERAL things planned for the upcoming months for the families of our company AS WELL as a Haunted House put on BY HHC for the ENTIRE POST!!! Yea, lets talk shit about us shall we!!
Well, with all the fuss, we now are getting rolling. Neysa is looking for places for the FRG meetings that allow kids and I am brainstorming places for her as well as ideas for things we can do. So far so good. We are going to start a website for the company that people can join to get information as well as make a fundraising quilt to post ideas on, thinking about making newcomers packets to give to in-processing soldiers for their spouses, and maybe a little gift for it as well as some other things.
Im going to be taking some classes to get certified for secretary for the FRG and some other things. Part of it I can do online but I have to register on post once I do. YIPPEEE go me!!! hahaha I'm getting all involved and such!!
Kids are good, Miss A started kindergarten last week!! How time flies. She is loving it and having fun being with kids her own age. She goes all day long and even is taking a nap during nap time!!!! They start so early she is exhausted by the time lunch comes around. Mr. K is getting sooooo big!! He is walking all around everything, has even started walking along the walls! Still not to sure about the whole standing on his own though. He lets go and will stand but he's to easily distracted and falls haha. My little ADD baby! He goes next week for his follow up blood work since his blood count is going in the opposite direction they want it to go. I've started giving him alot of juice with Vit C hoping it will help him absorb his iron supplement. I just don't know what to do anymore. He's growing at an amazing rate and doesn't show any effect, just gotta figure out whats going on. All my lab work came back NORMAL!!! No more worries that I'm dying hahahaha. L graduates next week and I'm super excited. Oh how I have missed my hubby!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Was it the right decision?

So it's been awhile. K had his 6 month check-up last month. Went ok for the most part, until.... he had to get his blood drawn for a hemeglben check to check on his anemia. Lets just say not where the Dr wanted them to be, they dropped so he put him back on the iron which I, for the life of me can not get him to take. He chipmonks it and then spits it out. I have to take him back in September for another level check. We'll see how that goes.
I often wonder if we made the right decision so many months ago in opting out of having a transfusion. Would we still be having these issues of him being anemic like he is? There is always the threat of him needing a transfusion as long as his numbers are as low as they are, but what if we would have done it then? I feel so bad having to take him month after month getting pricked and having his blood taken from his little body. They still don't know why he is like this, Im feeling as though they never will. I know I shouldn't think like this because other than that, he is healthy, his heart murmor is gone and he is growing like crazy. He has no developemental issues from his bili being as high as it was for so long, infact, he's doing things ahead of when he should.
Moving on, it's too depressing. A's hernia surgery went good. Shes now got a flat belly button as opposed to it sticking out. They put 2 permanent sutures in. The hole was a little bigger than he thought. She was sore for the first day and a half and then.... I couldn't keep her still. I had to take her to the ER though to have the gauze taken off. There was so much glue that it glues the gauze to her incision. I tried forever to get it off, soaking it, putting a wet cloth on it, and finally took her there and the lady had it off in like 5 min!!!
My knee surgery went well, Still stuck in that stupid brace until the middle of August but other than that, doing ok. I had 4 weeks no weight/walking with sucked cause L left for Ranger school a week after I had it done. Taking care of a 6-7 month old is not so easy when you can't walk. A has been such a BIG help.
She starts school on the 20th and i am soooo SAD!! My baby is 5!! Where did the time go that she's already in kindergarden? K is all over the place and is standing!!! He pulls himself up on everything. He is even getting brave enough to let go and he throws his head back and laughs! My 8 month old is a riot. He yells at the top of his lungs too. I just wish he would sleep through the night!

Monday, June 29, 2009

My three loves

This picture of Wes and Ashe playing princesses I love. This was from Christmas. This picture and the one below I blew up to 8x10's and put them in matter frames and gave them to him for Fathers Day as well as put them in a 3 picture frame for 4x6 pictures with one of all three of them together in the center.



This is my favorite picture of them two of them. Any other picture I have of them looking at one another he some how hs ruined it.

Not quite myself

I've been in a weird place lately and I'm not sure why. Emotionally, I'm a HUGE wicked mess. I don't know if it's because L is gone or if it's something else. I'm over the mood spectrum. I cried today while watching Maternity Ward when the sister got to cut her littlebrothers cord. I also cried when Wes and I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Whats that all about? Yeah it was sad that he died but holy crap, I have NEVER cried at stuff like that. Craziness I tell you.
I go back to the orthopedist tomorrow so I should know more about what they did to me. Hopefully I get these stitches out, I'm tired of having to either wear shorts, roll up my pant leg or wear the stupid ace bandage to keep the stitches from catching on my pants and pulling. Hopefully he'll give me the good news and say "you may now officially walk". Im not supposed to be putting weight on it but thats easier said than done when you have an almost 7 month old. But shhh I wont tell him that hahaha.
I've been hngin out with E alot. Shes been my savior the last few days. She even came over and helped me clean. I don't think she understands how much that means to me. The only thing i have now is our bedroom and the normal everyday things. I finally caught up on all the laundry and the dishes now that L is gone. It will be nice to maybe do a load of dishes once every couple of days and laundry every once and awhile. I do miss his messes though. As much as I hate constantly picking up dirty clothes and dishes from him, finding socks and boots all over my livingroom, I really miss it when those things aren't there.
I always seem to take for granted how much having him here means to me. I tend to complain a lot about the house always being dirty with his stuff or how he never picks up his clothes from the bathroom, leaves the toliet seat up or uses an abundance of towels, but I miss all those things when he is gone. I find myself leaving things on the floor just to make me try and miss him less. Sometimes I find myself questioning why I love this man so much and times like now are when I realize why I do haha. Sad that I can only remember the reasons when he's gone but, at least I know why I do.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Alone again.....

So L is gone... :( He left this morning. I miss him when he's gone but this time its more than normal because I don't know when I'll get to see him again and after Sunday I don't know when I'll hear from him again. Normally I wouldn't complain, seperation has been a big part of our relationship, I've gotten used to him being gone a lot, this time... its harder and I'm not sure if its due to not knowing when he'll be home, if its because I'm here alone with 2 kids or if its because I'm here alone with 2 kids and unable to walk due to my knee surgery. I have 3 more weeks and then I can start putting weight on it again (hopefully). I had my MCL repaired (I was told after the fact that thats one of the most painful and time consuming in the healing department out of all knee repairs.. gee thanks for the info after the fact) I start physical therapy hopefully sometime soon. I have a high rate of injuring it again before it is fully healed and for what I had done, it can take up to 6 months or longer. I also had the back of my knee cap scraped (yummy right?) and if I'm feeling correctly, it feels like i had some of it taken out.
I get side tracked easily. Anyways, today wasn't so bad although it was the first day. Went to Walmart with E and rode around in the gimp cart hahaha. Had K strapped to me in the snuggli facing forward. He got a kick out of me letting him grab the handles and making us go... he only managed to take us backwards. I'm hoping with L gone I can catch up on my school work and get ahead. Night time is when I normally do my work but because he's had so much time off to get ready to go he's been home a lot at night and stopped me from reading. I have 2 midterms to take. I'm taking one tonight (my history one isnt proctored and Im like 4 chapters behind) and I go and take my Comp one tomorrow morning. Wish me luck cause I need it.
K is getting soooo big, he is crawling all over the place. He's got 2 teeth now and more to come. Im still trying to wean him but he's at that stage where they develope seperation anxiety and he's having a hard time with it, especially when he's tired. He refuses to take the bottle, it has to be the boob or he is screaming his head off until his little face is purple and I have to give in to keep him from getting sick.
Miss A is 5!!! She turned 5 on Fathers Day. We had he party on Saturday and she had a blast. She got lots of toys. I can't believe how big she is getting. She'll be starting Kindergarden this fall and it amazes me how smart she is. She can say her ABC's, recognize letters and some words, count to 30 (she misses some numbers) and is awesome and putting things in order. She can write some letters and numbers but for the most part just gets frustrated. As we speak she pointing out letters and numbers and some words from which I am typing. We are starting to not be able to spell out words to avoid her overhearing them because she knows what they mean. We got her one of those V-smile V-motion thingies and she loves it, she's so good at some of the games. i was suprised and how fast she picked it up, she has never played a video game in her life.
Have I mentioned how much I hate it here? We have had a HUGE ant problem the last week. I went today and got some Home Defense spray because L's ant feeder things just weren't cutting it, they weren't reducing crap. So far so good, i just need to sweep up the little ant carcuses and other bugs that died in the battle already. I'm shocked at how fast it worked. Should have seen me hobbling around on my crutches spraying where I was able to because of my limited movement and because the kids were still awake. Im gonna see if E wil help me move some furniture tomorrow to get behind the couches and stuf before we go to dinner tomorrow.
I wish the pizza would hurry up and get here, Im starving and want my damn bread sticks!!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Life says it all

So I have been MIA lately. We have been really busy with drs appts, school and all sorts of stuff. Wes had some leave time (FINALLY!!). He's still on leave now but busy with other stuff. We went to Va to let ever one see Mr. K. That went ok except for the trip down there. Baby had such a bad virus. He was all snotty and sick it basically took us 6 hours to get 3 hours into our trip. We barely had made it into Mississippi before we had to stop for the night because it was close to midnight and we were both drained. (Keep in mind we live about 4.5 hours from Miss. and we left at 230 pm. We finally got to Va the next day at like 11 pm. I had to sit in the back to keep K happy the rest of the trip. Everyone oogled over him and loved on him. I was never so ready to leave and get back home!! The trip back went so much better! I didnt have to sit in the back with him until we were halfway through Miss and we made it home at 1230 am. (we left at 730 am) I am proud to say that Mr. K now has a tooth!!! I noticed it on Friday when we were in Tenn stopped at a rest stop!! His other tooth is coming in right next to it. Ican feel it and see the tip if it under the skin so any day now.
Miss A goes in on Monday for her hernia repair. Im kind of nervous about that but they told me its a pretty straight forward procedure. They just make a small incision, push ther hernia back under the muscle, close the opening with a suture and shes done, takes about 30 min. He said we should be in and out within a 6 hour window. Jenn is being awsome and watching K for me so that I dont have to put him in daycare since the most likely wont be open by the time we need to be there and so that I don't go over the time I need to pick him up in the likely event it gets pushed back or takes longer for some reason. (military hospitals are good for that)
My composition class is killing me! So much work due at one time!! (8 exercises, a 750 word discriptive essay, 3 discussion posts and ALOT of reading!!!) I can do all of this stuff in my writing without thinking about it but having to sit down and point it out and correct it, not so easy. Dangling modifiers are killing me for some reason. Anyone good at those that could explain it to me???
PT is going ok. I found out that I am FINALLY allergic to a medicine lol. Something so weird I would never think about it. Its a topical cream that is like the pill form that I am supposed to be taking. I also have a script for the gel for of it. I haven't gotten it because I can't find anywhere around here that carries it but now that I know I can't use it no sense in tryin to find it. After about 5 min my leg starting burning and I asked if that was normal and they told me yea it was just the current that was doing that. Well 15 min into it and with only 4 more to go I told the guy that it felt like I had been touched with a hot pan or burned myself on the oven so he took it off and OMG my leg was bright red, sore, irritated and hot to the touch. It was swollen and puffy so they quickly put and ice pack on it. Right now it feels like I have 1000 needles stabbing me. I go on the 16th for my MRI results (about time already!!!) so we shall see what they say. The PT guy is reccommending that I have the surgery because of my pain now being isolated. Also because I have a tingling sensation when they move around my knee cap, it makes me knee kinda jump.
Thats it in this crazy life... Oh, K now weighs 17 lbs!! We found this out when we had to take him to the er in Va. I am on the hunt for a new carset for him (one of the convertable ones) since hes about 3 lbs away from the limit on his. Plus hes getting too heavy for me to carry in the one he has now so it just ends up staying in the car all the time now.