Not liking this place

So, so far, this place sucks. I went to the hospital yesterday to switch regions in tricare and go to womens health to get my paperword for housing to show proof of pregnancy and the chick didnt know what she was talking about. Got me really iritated, (not that thats hard to do lately). She kept telling me that the person that could give me the paperwork wasn't there and to come back tomorrow. I was like ok, then I asked her if I needed to have blood work done before she gives me that paperwork to verify. She told me that as long as I had a positive home test that that was fine. Ummm.... yea so anyone can walk in say, "hey I had a positive home test, I need the paperwork to get a bigger house" and then after they move and before the first appt claim miscarriage... She just simply tells me no and after my ob reg I will have all my blood tests done. So I went back there this morning and she says "Oh, shes in the ob reg class and wont be done until 11. Well isnt that FUCKING NICE!!! Why didnt your dumb ass tell me that yesterday? I could have saved myself the severe headache i have right now by sleeping alittle bit longer. So we leave, (wes has to be at his unit to meet and greet and take over the section at 1245) and go get something to eat. I try and call the lady at 5 after and she wasnt there. So we head over there thinking that by the time we get there she would be there. We get there and shes not there.... great, she probabl went to lunch. The same dumb ass chick asks if we want to wait. I say yeah I'll wait for a bit. About 10 min later, she comes back in the waiting room and tells me that she needs my id because she was talking to one of the other nurses and I do need a blood test. Yeah lady thanks for callin me a moron yesterday and makig me wait for no damn reason. So I go and get my blood drawn and leave. Im about to call the lady I need to speak to to see when I can pick up the paperwork. My OB reg class is tuesday. Im hoping that I can skip it and get seen sooner since I am rh- and I am sensatised and I have had 2 leeps and have already had a preemie baby. I am considered high risks so Im not taking any chances. If I cant get an appt sooner Im hoping that I can get all the rest of my blood work done. For cripes sakes, Im 6 weeks and 4 days, I will be 7 weeks 4 days at my ob reg and with leeps, you are supposed to be seen by the time you are 8 weeks to determine whether or not you need a cerclauge. I was told its supposed to be done by 10 weeks. At this rate, I'll be 10 weeks at my first appt.
I also need to talk to her about my 24/7 hangover that I seem to have. I read in my book that if you didn't have it with your first pregnancy, you arent predisposed to having it in any other pregnancy. If you have it in a subsequent pregnancy, it can signal something is wrong or you are pregnant with multiples... It also can just be luck of the draw. I might have felt like shit with ashe just didnt kknow it because I was preoccupied with all the other problems. Im just hoping that everthing goes well and no problems come up. The smell of our laundry detergent I used to LOVE!! now, I cant stand it and the smell is overwhelming. My body soap, shampoo and conditioner? Half the time I get in the shower I end up jsut rinsing off and not using it because I end up with a really bad case of dry heving and end up doubled up. I guess I might feel better if i were able to throw up but I guess thats what I get being able to handle stuff and never really throwing up.

finally here

so we are finally in La. We got here yesterday late afternoon. Wes right now is at the housing office finding out about housing. I prolly should be getting ready to go because we have to go to the hospital and inroll in tricare. I need to get my blod work done and make an appt and ashe needs to go see the dr about those bumps on her face.
This pregnancy, although I am only 6 weeks has sucked butt. I am ALWAYS sick. Its like I dont know what feeling good is like. I constantly wanna throw up. I am extremely paranoid right now because of what happened when I was preggo with ashelynn. I bled really bad from about 5 weeks to 20 weeks. I try and reassure myself in the sense that I am a week past the point where i started having problems with ashe but everytime I feel a little leak I have to run for the bathroom to check to make sure that Im not bleeding. I have a constant headache that is not so much fun. Tylenol(sp) only works for about an hour or so and since right now I can only take 2 a day it makes the day sooooooooooo much fun. I know that I shouldnt complain because its taken 2 years of unprotected sex, 4 months of tracking my cervical fluid and 2 months of temp charting to get here, I would just like to experience the great uneventful pregnancy that all my friends seem to have had. I totally didnt think that I was pregnant. I had it in my mind that my body was being retarded and I was gonna start any time. I started having these weird twangs of pain that would only last a sec on each side and in my crotch. I also had increased discharge. I looked up online and everything pointed to pregnancy and I was like, nope, no way. Wes made me take a rest. he woke me up at like 730 and argued with me for an hour to go take it. I was totally shocked cause it was like BAM as soon as the urin hit that part of the test. I had to go back and check the box and instructions to make sure what I was reading as right.
Well thats about it for now gotta get dressed, he should be here soon

so

our house is packed up and we are staying in lodging on elmendorf. We leave on the 16th to start our long journey to Va and then to La. Wish me luck. I cant wait to get to La and get our stuff back. I miss my bed! We are sleeping on a double bed and let me tell you, I am about fed up with having the left side of my body slept on lol. I also cant wait to get down there so Amanda can come visit and I can see how big Rye guy has gotten and see baby Ayden!!!! I'm gonna try and get on again before we leave. Im at my moms house right now. I wanted to come update my fertility chart. My temps are looking a lot different then last month. The link is below if you want to check them out!
I know that I should be greatful that I have one kid already and trust me I am. I just hate that it was so easy the first time around and now I am dealing with trying to get pregnant after cervical cancer. I know she said that I look good but i still cant help but think otherwise. We will see though!

strange things are happeneing

So... I get my period every 25-27 days... Well... day 28 is over in about an hour and I still have no period. I don't even feel like im going to get it...... I had a HUGE temp drop today though so it makes me think its coming soon.... My temp yesterday was 99 and this morning it was 98.4. If its high tomorrow, well then I don't know what to think at this point. I had sex the days that I thought I was ovulating and the day that my tracker says that I did and the days before and after. Then again my tracker also says I am supposed to get my period on the 31? But then it says my average cycle is 26 days with 25 being the shortest and 27 longest??? I normally do get it every 25-27 days right on the money and like I said before, day 28 is over with in an hour. I'll play the chart game and see what comes up. Its only 3 days so its only about 5 days that I have to drive myself nuts.
The wedding was awesome! Had some snags, but then again nothing ever goes as planned and I can not wait!! to see the pics that were taken! We took some really good ones and then we got to take some really goofy ones. The kids were soooooooooo super cute! Ashe, Laiken and Mckinlee did awesome! Ashelynn looked so pretty in her dress with her hair all curled! I wanted to cry when I saw how grown up she looked! I'll be sure to post the link that I'll have my pics on or I may post some of them here.
We are moving on schedule after all. We are going to do an in route tdy move. Basically we are screwing the army and the system lol but it is TOTALLY legal. They pulled all the strings and loops to make sure we were still leaving on time on Thursday and it was all finalized Friday so. They come Monday for the pre-inventory and then friday to pack up. Im ready for all og this to be over with thats for damn sure.
Monday I am going to go cut and color my hair. Wes wants me to go back blonde but I with that I am just going to go with a light brown and blonde highlights. Sounds better to me because I didnt like the blonde all in my hair. The most I'll compromise with him is the lightbrown/dark blonde. I'm also butting about 5 inches off my hair to make it collar bone length. Thats alot of hair and he is not dealing with it so well but I am tired of my hair and the fact that it wont hold a curl anymore with out mass amounts of hairspray!
Heres the link to my chart if you wanna see.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/646e1

FUCK THE ARMY

So lets see, we are all set to move, sorted (well almost sorted stuff out) put in our 30 day notice with the leasing office, I quit my job, movers are coming next week and what happens? He gets a freaking letter in his AKO that says his new DROS date is August 10. hes not worried about it, hes already got orders blah blah blah. So, he calls me today and tells me, "Well looks like we are here until August". ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!! WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW????? I have no job, no place to live because I REFUSE to stay here in this shit hole apt any longer and my house is in total disarray!! I can not believe that this is happening! I am so fucking sick of the Army!!! I have been stressed out beyond belief, arguing over stupid shit with Wes because we are both stressed out

I just dont understand

I hate how you make me feel like I am not good enough. I feel like I am losing who I am jsut to please you. When I think that I am doing fine, you find a way to cut me down. I can't be who you want me to be while still continuing to be myself. I don't recognise myself in your eyes anymore.
I can't take the way you talk to me. It feels like I am not important enough for you to talk rationally to. I feel like you think that I am some type of idiot who is incapable of understanding you unless you talk to me like I am a child no older then my own or like I am some simpleton who just can't concieve rational thought. I need for you to have compassion and realize that I am not like everyone else that you deal with. I need for you to tell me the things that bother you and that you don't like before you scream and yell. I need... I need.... I need for you to be who you were 3 years ago......

great

Im freaking sick!!!! Our wedding is in 3 days and I have GREEN snot clogging up my nose!!! On top of that its making it hard to breath and my asthma is kickin in and low and behold I lost my inhaler over Christmas leave and I have no vehicle today because its getting the underbody spray on it for rust protection out in Wasilla so I couldn't make an appt to go to the dr to get another inhaler and maybe something to clean my nose out! UGH!!! I hate this crap. Im so happy to be leaving Alaska. When I was in Florida, the entire 4 months I was down there the only time I got sick was when I caught a stomach bug from someone. The 2 months I was in Pa, the only time I got sick was... well I didnt get sick, I left Fl with the stomach thing and it just kind of played out the rest of the way there. When I get back to Ak, I was sick 5 times in a 2 month span!!!! I again spent 3 weeks in Fl in 06 and didn't get sick once, I came back to ak for a week and had like a 24 hour big!!! I got that right before I left to Az. I was in Az and Ca for about a week and a half and didnt get sick. I came back and was sick 5 days after we got back!!! I spend 99% of my time sick I feel like and I blame it on this stupid state!! How is it that I can spend 4 months in another state and not get sick with a cold once but yet in this God foresaken state I am ALWAYS sick!!