Feedom comes at a price and some pay more than others. I proudly support my husband in his decisions to help protect our way of life even though it means long lonely nights of worry and heartbreak.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Not liking this place

So, so far, this place sucks. I went to the hospital yesterday to switch regions in tricare and go to womens health to get my paperword for housing to show proof of pregnancy and the chick didnt know what she was talking about. Got me really iritated, (not that thats hard to do lately). She kept telling me that the person that could give me the paperwork wasn't there and to come back tomorrow. I was like ok, then I asked her if I needed to have blood work done before she gives me that paperwork to verify. She told me that as long as I had a positive home test that that was fine. Ummm.... yea so anyone can walk in say, "hey I had a positive home test, I need the paperwork to get a bigger house" and then after they move and before the first appt claim miscarriage... She just simply tells me no and after my ob reg I will have all my blood tests done. So I went back there this morning and she says "Oh, shes in the ob reg class and wont be done until 11. Well isnt that FUCKING NICE!!! Why didnt your dumb ass tell me that yesterday? I could have saved myself the severe headache i have right now by sleeping alittle bit longer. So we leave, (wes has to be at his unit to meet and greet and take over the section at 1245) and go get something to eat. I try and call the lady at 5 after and she wasnt there. So we head over there thinking that by the time we get there she would be there. We get there and shes not there.... great, she probabl went to lunch. The same dumb ass chick asks if we want to wait. I say yeah I'll wait for a bit. About 10 min later, she comes back in the waiting room and tells me that she needs my id because she was talking to one of the other nurses and I do need a blood test. Yeah lady thanks for callin me a moron yesterday and makig me wait for no damn reason. So I go and get my blood drawn and leave. Im about to call the lady I need to speak to to see when I can pick up the paperwork. My OB reg class is tuesday. Im hoping that I can skip it and get seen sooner since I am rh- and I am sensatised and I have had 2 leeps and have already had a preemie baby. I am considered high risks so Im not taking any chances. If I cant get an appt sooner Im hoping that I can get all the rest of my blood work done. For cripes sakes, Im 6 weeks and 4 days, I will be 7 weeks 4 days at my ob reg and with leeps, you are supposed to be seen by the time you are 8 weeks to determine whether or not you need a cerclauge. I was told its supposed to be done by 10 weeks. At this rate, I'll be 10 weeks at my first appt.
I also need to talk to her about my 24/7 hangover that I seem to have. I read in my book that if you didn't have it with your first pregnancy, you arent predisposed to having it in any other pregnancy. If you have it in a subsequent pregnancy, it can signal something is wrong or you are pregnant with multiples... It also can just be luck of the draw. I might have felt like shit with ashe just didnt kknow it because I was preoccupied with all the other problems. Im just hoping that everthing goes well and no problems come up. The smell of our laundry detergent I used to LOVE!! now, I cant stand it and the smell is overwhelming. My body soap, shampoo and conditioner? Half the time I get in the shower I end up jsut rinsing off and not using it because I end up with a really bad case of dry heving and end up doubled up. I guess I might feel better if i were able to throw up but I guess thats what I get being able to handle stuff and never really throwing up.

Friday, May 2, 2008

finally here

so we are finally in La. We got here yesterday late afternoon. Wes right now is at the housing office finding out about housing. I prolly should be getting ready to go because we have to go to the hospital and inroll in tricare. I need to get my blod work done and make an appt and ashe needs to go see the dr about those bumps on her face.
This pregnancy, although I am only 6 weeks has sucked butt. I am ALWAYS sick. Its like I dont know what feeling good is like. I constantly wanna throw up. I am extremely paranoid right now because of what happened when I was preggo with ashelynn. I bled really bad from about 5 weeks to 20 weeks. I try and reassure myself in the sense that I am a week past the point where i started having problems with ashe but everytime I feel a little leak I have to run for the bathroom to check to make sure that Im not bleeding. I have a constant headache that is not so much fun. Tylenol(sp) only works for about an hour or so and since right now I can only take 2 a day it makes the day sooooooooooo much fun. I know that I shouldnt complain because its taken 2 years of unprotected sex, 4 months of tracking my cervical fluid and 2 months of temp charting to get here, I would just like to experience the great uneventful pregnancy that all my friends seem to have had. I totally didnt think that I was pregnant. I had it in my mind that my body was being retarded and I was gonna start any time. I started having these weird twangs of pain that would only last a sec on each side and in my crotch. I also had increased discharge. I looked up online and everything pointed to pregnancy and I was like, nope, no way. Wes made me take a rest. he woke me up at like 730 and argued with me for an hour to go take it. I was totally shocked cause it was like BAM as soon as the urin hit that part of the test. I had to go back and check the box and instructions to make sure what I was reading as right.
Well thats about it for now gotta get dressed, he should be here soon