My three loves

This picture of Wes and Ashe playing princesses I love. This was from Christmas. This picture and the one below I blew up to 8x10's and put them in matter frames and gave them to him for Fathers Day as well as put them in a 3 picture frame for 4x6 pictures with one of all three of them together in the center.

This is my favorite picture of them two of them. Any other picture I have of them looking at one another he some how hs ruined it.

Not quite myself

I've been in a weird place lately and I'm not sure why. Emotionally, I'm a HUGE wicked mess. I don't know if it's because L is gone or if it's something else. I'm over the mood spectrum. I cried today while watching Maternity Ward when the sister got to cut her littlebrothers cord. I also cried when Wes and I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Whats that all about? Yeah it was sad that he died but holy crap, I have NEVER cried at stuff like that. Craziness I tell you.
I go back to the orthopedist tomorrow so I should know more about what they did to me. Hopefully I get these stitches out, I'm tired of having to either wear shorts, roll up my pant leg or wear the stupid ace bandage to keep the stitches from catching on my pants and pulling. Hopefully he'll give me the good news and say "you may now officially walk". Im not supposed to be putting weight on it but thats easier said than done when you have an almost 7 month old. But shhh I wont tell him that hahaha.
I've been hngin out with E alot. Shes been my savior the last few days. She even came over and helped me clean. I don't think she understands how much that means to me. The only thing i have now is our bedroom and the normal everyday things. I finally caught up on all the laundry and the dishes now that L is gone. It will be nice to maybe do a load of dishes once every couple of days and laundry every once and awhile. I do miss his messes though. As much as I hate constantly picking up dirty clothes and dishes from him, finding socks and boots all over my livingroom, I really miss it when those things aren't there.
I always seem to take for granted how much having him here means to me. I tend to complain a lot about the house always being dirty with his stuff or how he never picks up his clothes from the bathroom, leaves the toliet seat up or uses an abundance of towels, but I miss all those things when he is gone. I find myself leaving things on the floor just to make me try and miss him less. Sometimes I find myself questioning why I love this man so much and times like now are when I realize why I do haha. Sad that I can only remember the reasons when he's gone but, at least I know why I do.

Alone again.....

So L is gone... :( He left this morning. I miss him when he's gone but this time its more than normal because I don't know when I'll get to see him again and after Sunday I don't know when I'll hear from him again. Normally I wouldn't complain, seperation has been a big part of our relationship, I've gotten used to him being gone a lot, this time... its harder and I'm not sure if its due to not knowing when he'll be home, if its because I'm here alone with 2 kids or if its because I'm here alone with 2 kids and unable to walk due to my knee surgery. I have 3 more weeks and then I can start putting weight on it again (hopefully). I had my MCL repaired (I was told after the fact that thats one of the most painful and time consuming in the healing department out of all knee repairs.. gee thanks for the info after the fact) I start physical therapy hopefully sometime soon. I have a high rate of injuring it again before it is fully healed and for what I had done, it can take up to 6 months or longer. I also had the back of my knee cap scraped (yummy right?) and if I'm feeling correctly, it feels like i had some of it taken out.
I get side tracked easily. Anyways, today wasn't so bad although it was the first day. Went to Walmart with E and rode around in the gimp cart hahaha. Had K strapped to me in the snuggli facing forward. He got a kick out of me letting him grab the handles and making us go... he only managed to take us backwards. I'm hoping with L gone I can catch up on my school work and get ahead. Night time is when I normally do my work but because he's had so much time off to get ready to go he's been home a lot at night and stopped me from reading. I have 2 midterms to take. I'm taking one tonight (my history one isnt proctored and Im like 4 chapters behind) and I go and take my Comp one tomorrow morning. Wish me luck cause I need it.
K is getting soooo big, he is crawling all over the place. He's got 2 teeth now and more to come. Im still trying to wean him but he's at that stage where they develope seperation anxiety and he's having a hard time with it, especially when he's tired. He refuses to take the bottle, it has to be the boob or he is screaming his head off until his little face is purple and I have to give in to keep him from getting sick.
Miss A is 5!!! She turned 5 on Fathers Day. We had he party on Saturday and she had a blast. She got lots of toys. I can't believe how big she is getting. She'll be starting Kindergarden this fall and it amazes me how smart she is. She can say her ABC's, recognize letters and some words, count to 30 (she misses some numbers) and is awesome and putting things in order. She can write some letters and numbers but for the most part just gets frustrated. As we speak she pointing out letters and numbers and some words from which I am typing. We are starting to not be able to spell out words to avoid her overhearing them because she knows what they mean. We got her one of those V-smile V-motion thingies and she loves it, she's so good at some of the games. i was suprised and how fast she picked it up, she has never played a video game in her life.
Have I mentioned how much I hate it here? We have had a HUGE ant problem the last week. I went today and got some Home Defense spray because L's ant feeder things just weren't cutting it, they weren't reducing crap. So far so good, i just need to sweep up the little ant carcuses and other bugs that died in the battle already. I'm shocked at how fast it worked. Should have seen me hobbling around on my crutches spraying where I was able to because of my limited movement and because the kids were still awake. Im gonna see if E wil help me move some furniture tomorrow to get behind the couches and stuf before we go to dinner tomorrow.
I wish the pizza would hurry up and get here, Im starving and want my damn bread sticks!!

Life says it all

So I have been MIA lately. We have been really busy with drs appts, school and all sorts of stuff. Wes had some leave time (FINALLY!!). He's still on leave now but busy with other stuff. We went to Va to let ever one see Mr. K. That went ok except for the trip down there. Baby had such a bad virus. He was all snotty and sick it basically took us 6 hours to get 3 hours into our trip. We barely had made it into Mississippi before we had to stop for the night because it was close to midnight and we were both drained. (Keep in mind we live about 4.5 hours from Miss. and we left at 230 pm. We finally got to Va the next day at like 11 pm. I had to sit in the back to keep K happy the rest of the trip. Everyone oogled over him and loved on him. I was never so ready to leave and get back home!! The trip back went so much better! I didnt have to sit in the back with him until we were halfway through Miss and we made it home at 1230 am. (we left at 730 am) I am proud to say that Mr. K now has a tooth!!! I noticed it on Friday when we were in Tenn stopped at a rest stop!! His other tooth is coming in right next to it. Ican feel it and see the tip if it under the skin so any day now.
Miss A goes in on Monday for her hernia repair. Im kind of nervous about that but they told me its a pretty straight forward procedure. They just make a small incision, push ther hernia back under the muscle, close the opening with a suture and shes done, takes about 30 min. He said we should be in and out within a 6 hour window. Jenn is being awsome and watching K for me so that I dont have to put him in daycare since the most likely wont be open by the time we need to be there and so that I don't go over the time I need to pick him up in the likely event it gets pushed back or takes longer for some reason. (military hospitals are good for that)
My composition class is killing me! So much work due at one time!! (8 exercises, a 750 word discriptive essay, 3 discussion posts and ALOT of reading!!!) I can do all of this stuff in my writing without thinking about it but having to sit down and point it out and correct it, not so easy. Dangling modifiers are killing me for some reason. Anyone good at those that could explain it to me???
PT is going ok. I found out that I am FINALLY allergic to a medicine lol. Something so weird I would never think about it. Its a topical cream that is like the pill form that I am supposed to be taking. I also have a script for the gel for of it. I haven't gotten it because I can't find anywhere around here that carries it but now that I know I can't use it no sense in tryin to find it. After about 5 min my leg starting burning and I asked if that was normal and they told me yea it was just the current that was doing that. Well 15 min into it and with only 4 more to go I told the guy that it felt like I had been touched with a hot pan or burned myself on the oven so he took it off and OMG my leg was bright red, sore, irritated and hot to the touch. It was swollen and puffy so they quickly put and ice pack on it. Right now it feels like I have 1000 needles stabbing me. I go on the 16th for my MRI results (about time already!!!) so we shall see what they say. The PT guy is reccommending that I have the surgery because of my pain now being isolated. Also because I have a tingling sensation when they move around my knee cap, it makes me knee kinda jump.
Thats it in this crazy life... Oh, K now weighs 17 lbs!! We found this out when we had to take him to the er in Va. I am on the hunt for a new carset for him (one of the convertable ones) since hes about 3 lbs away from the limit on his. Plus hes getting too heavy for me to carry in the one he has now so it just ends up staying in the car all the time now.