kinda personal

ok so this is really embarrassing but its really serious. I have NEVER had a problem with hemmerhiods. Not when I was pregnant with Ashe, not after and not while I was pregnant with k. But.. for some DAMN reason, I have a freaking hemmerhoid now!! Its internal and its to the point that when i poop(tmi) that i have bloody stools and I feel like im pooping out my intestines. I go to the dr on the 21st so hopefully he can tell me whether they need to do something about it. I've been using prep-h for the last couple days and im getting to the point im gonna have to use the appicator and shove it up my butt. I dread having to poop and I have been using colace to help soften my stools but its not helping me at all. I know its because of my section that Im having such a hard time with my stool being really hard. I almost thought i was gonna have to go to the er today because there was sooo much blood.
On to better things... k went to the dr today and hes 9 lbs 13 oz. My little chunky monkey. His labs were good today. Still not great but better. he is now at 28 and 9.5. All his lab work has come back for everything they tested him for and it all came back normal. They still dont know why hes anemic. She said that they can test for all the big key factors but there are some small ones that they cant test for and one of them can be my immunities on my red cells attacked his even though we are both O- and RH-. Sometimes it just happens. It will take him awhile to grow out of it. As he gets older and his body matures, he'll kick it. He still has to be on iron. She was gonna up the does but decided not to cause hes having a problem with reflux. He goes back for his two month well baby check up (yeah 2 months can you believe that shit?) in 2 weeks. She said shes not gonna draw blood unless there is a need. We also go see the cardiologist on the 26th. He still has that murmor which she is convinced is from his anemia but because he is still breathing fast she wants to cover all areas just to make sure there isnt any other underlying problem.