So good news first.. I am 36 weeks tomorrow!!(34w 1d the drs count but they are gay and NOT going by my u/s) YAY!! haha i know such a small thing to be excited about yet its a big thing to me. On to the not so great news. I haven't grown in a month. I mean I've grown lol but my findal height hasnt grown any which means that baby might not be growing. I have an u/s on tuesday and assuming that radiology does their job right, I'll have my results for my appt on Wed but... this is BJACH, an army hospital and civilian technitions and radiologists so I don't see that happening. Everyone in that effing hospital other than the drs and nurses are freaking civilians and rude as hell who think that they are oh so important and can take their sweet time. So Im hoping that its a fluke that Im only measuring 30-31 weeks.
If he does turn out to have IUGR that means that the end of the road is here because its better for him on the outside then the inside. While I'll be happy to be done with the contractions and the pelvic pain and pressure, I don't know how I can deal with another baby in the NICU if he ends up there. It wasn't so bad with A cause I lived like 5 min away from Providence where they sent us, and I had no other kids, but the NICU here is in Alexandria which is 45 min away and I have Ashe that I will be toting with me. Its hard to keep a 4 year old quiet and calm for that long in a medical enviornment where she cant do anything but sit there.
Im really hoping its not my anemia that is causing an issue. Wes told me that I need to relax and Im getting worked up over nothing that hes fine and its nothing but I can't help but worry cause A was the same way. She was small for gestation. Men they just dont get it.
Feedom comes at a price and some pay more than others. I proudly support my husband in his decisions to help protect our way of life even though it means long lonely nights of worry and heartbreak.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
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