Finding out the hard way

So I now understand more about why they told me if I got pregnant it would be hard. I had to stop takin my asthma meds when I did because they increades my bp. I also couldnt take my rescue inhaler because it increased my heartrate. Well they told me that coming off them would cause some issues and boy they were right! I have had a little shortness of breath ever since I came off of them, i figured no biggie I can handle it. Well today I couldnt. I was in the PX and I started having trouble breathing. It turned into a full blown attack and on top of that because we were alone I started to panic. Well I stopped and calmed down and checked out and headed for the hospital. I started to freak out again when I was walking in. I almost started crying when I was talking to the guy. He said my sat levels were good but my heart rate was high. He told me just to sit and calm down that I was going to be fine. So I had to wait 2 flippin hours to see the dr. Im freakin pregnant HELLO!!! I cant breath my baby cant breath. So the er doc gave me something, well some things that I could take. One of them Im not sure of so I gotta call OB tomorrow just to make sure its ok to take. I have to take 2 puffs 4 times a day and its a high dose steriod even though he said it wasnt. Umm I think the warning on it says it all. Im feeling a lot better now, still a little tight but definately better. He told me that I can't tough it out that I HAVE to take the medicine.

Just something random

I've realized that in the last 3 years, I have spent a lot of time by myself. Its made me realize a lot about myself. I've come to realize that I do well on my own. I can think for myself more and I like not having to rely on someone to do things for me. Granted, there are some things that I can't do myself and it is nice to have someone else around, but I'm pretty good at living by myself, I think I've had enough practice.
Having L home from Iraq has definately been a BIG adjustment. I'm used to doing things in my own time. If the house is messy, its ok cause its just ashe and I and 9 times out of 10 its just toys and well, anyone who has toddlers or has watched toddlers knows that its pointless to clean everyday. I dont go threw that many dishes so I dont worry whether the dishes get done every day. I can just chill, relax and spend time with A and worry about all the other stuff when she goes to bed. Having L home has drastically changed that. With him it has to be clean EVERYDAY and toys on the floor is unacceptable. Dishes have to be done everyday and Heaven forbid they sit in the dishwasher longer then the next morning. I have a TON of laundry to do and it seems like I could clean the house from top to bottom and within 5 min of him being home, its trashed again and its not the child that did it. I can see the need to make the house look decent, just for peace of mind, but to have it SPOTLESS all day every day, man I tell you what, I might as well quit at this whole house wife thing.
Now that Im pregnant this is getting harder to do because although I am in my second trimester, I am still low on energy and I still have plenty of days where I dont feel good and I am sluggish. While he is now getting a better understanding of day to day life with a child and realizing that life can not be perfect and neither can your house, he still has his moments. I told him that if he thinks that its bad now that I am slow to do things, he needs to wait and see what its like when I have this baby because NOTHING is going to get done for awhile. I am having a repeat c-section which is going to be a lot more painful and take a lot longer to recover from then the first one, but I am going to have to juggle a 4 year old and (a 95% chance that this baby will be) a premie, that I am going to have no energy what so ever. Its bad enough having a newborn with the no sleep in the begining but with a premie the sleep is even less.
Im drifting off, which I tend to do lately, but having him gone to BNOC, I miss him a ton, but the peace and quiet and relaxation is nice, very nice. I think that I need to have more time to myself when L gets home before the baby comes. Whether it be shopping by myself, or going for a drive by myself or even locking myself in my room and just relaxing, Im going to do it. I NEED to do it. I need to do it for my sanity and to keep from losing my mind with constantly cleaning the house.

Ugh the curse of pregnancy!

I have a cold.. well its more like allergies meet my daughters cold. I forgot how crappy it was to be sick or have an allergy flare-up when you are pregnant because you cant take anything! Im still 8 weeks away from being able to take sudafed. I can't even use my inhaler which makes breathing sooooooooo much fun let me tell you. I have my next appt on the 24th and I am going to BEG him to give me something. The nurse practioner I saw for my initial appt on the 5th told me that I can't take the albuterol but I can take cingular or that one inhaler that lasts for up to 12 hours for relief. I can't remember the name. I have a non-albuterol inhaler but it doesn't help me at all. Its like I took nothing. Grrr... My body feels like I got hit by a truck. Im so stuffed up I can feel all my teeth.
Other then feeling crappy, the only pregnancy complaint I have is I'm still experiencing some morning sickness, or all day sickness. I still find myself running to the bathroom or looking at the toliet paper after I wipe to make sure that im not bleeding. So far so good and nothing showed on the ultrasound. I'm considered high risk. I have to go every couple of weeks a see the dr. I also have to have my cervix measured to make sure it doesn't shorten. When that happens, its stuck to the bed my butt gets. Fun right? Baby looked good at my first ultrasound. It was hard for the tech to get some good measurements and still pics for the radiologist and for me because the kid was literally bouncing off the side of my uterus. I ended up being a week ahead of what they thought. Good for me YAY!! I'm now due the 22nd instead of the 28. Im not complaining. I'm now in my second trimester which I guess makes me feel better because the chance of miscarriage goes down a ton.
Thats all I have for now I guess.